When I was eleven years old, I had a boyfriend, Malcolm Lancaster. I had already developed an idealistic spirit, however, so I was hard to satisfy. At school, I dreamt of becoming a dramatic musician artist, like Wagner, Mozart, or Handel. I did well at school and university (music, italian, design), but because of the clash between my idealism and mainstream society, I began to have nervous breakdowns.
At that point, in my early twenties, I decided to sample sex and intimate relationships to see if mainstream society did provide keys to life, and to see if I was mistaken in pushing along in solitude. I doubted my first love because it had become corrupted by loneliness. Fortunately, in 2003, I met Rhett Hamilton, who showed strong enthusiasm for the spirit of idealism and the power of the mind. This prompted me to push myself along the solitary path of reason, dropping-out of society to find out how to live wisely.
The following texts were of great benefit to me:
- the deeply humorous and meditative Wisdom of the Infinite written by David Quinn;
- Otto Weininger's spirit-shattering libation to truth, written in his early twenties: Sex and Character ;
- and Poison for the Heart by Kevin Solway.
I live alone, spending my days thinking, enjoying Nature, sometimes reading or programming. My income is the disability pension (I deliberately allowed myself to be diagnosed as having a schizotypal personality, instead of a schizotypoid personality like most. For a comparison, click here). My purpose in life is to help people awaken to Nature.
