A loss
A loss is more of a spiritual test than death, for it is harder to submit to.
Selling of the soul
To compromise a scruple is painful in the beginning. You really do give up a part of yourself. But once it is gone, the pain is over, and one has, after all, achieved a greater good - hasn't one?
"Mature" people tell us they are fully satisfied in life; that they truly enjoy their work, and are happy in marriage. These pure ones have a clear conscience - which is necessarily the case when there is no conscience! And when there is no conscience there is no soul, because soul is conscience.